there's been a long while since the last time i blogged.
alot of things going on lately.
i was so busy with exams, Yiyi's wedding and post exam relaxing therapy.
when preparing for exam, i realized my brain was empty. how am i going to graduate with this little knowledge inside this small little brain? i was scared. and i felt hopeless.
there is few months left before my finals. hopefully during this few months, i ll absorb much more useful knowledge, that will enable me to become a good dentist. *finger crossed.
only few months left, i really need to work hard from now onwards. really need to stay focused!
on the other hand, i started to enjoy my life now.
there's only few more months before my life as a student ends.
now i have all the freedom to do things that i like.
for example, a small random getaway trip to penang, decided right after we have our dinner. and there u go, the next thing we know, we were on the highway to the penang shopping mall. it was so random and spontaneous, and u were right, this is what i ll remember. a spontaneous trip, not the ones that we plan so hard and trying to make it great.
yes, i admit sometimes i feel bored and lonely. but actually, i enjoy spending time with myself too.
while i am eating or walking alone, actually i am listening to my own thoughts, like there is a voice inside my head talking to myself. this voice gives me positive energy and strength to keep myself going on, despite all these depressions. i need to be strong enough because i've learned that, the only one u can really depend on, is yourself.
i know i've changed. i know there's no one to protect u, but yourself.
i have never really know what i wanted. but at least, for now, i know what i do not want for myself.
i need to feel comfortable, sometimes i feel most comfortable when i am alone.
when it comes to friendship, i need to feel comfortable with you. i need to feel that, i can truly be myself in front of you. because we are friends.
1 comment:
good luck in your final exam! hwaiting!
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