remember i said, i was thinking about creating a new blog?
and finally i did it, thanks to the boredom.
yup! i have a new blog.
but i aint sure how many of you who are reading this would like to continue reading my blog.
well, dont say i didnt tell you now.
again, i didnt make it private. i still welcome those who care to know more about me to continue reading it.
i am sure you can find it pretty easily.
or you can PM me to ask for the new blog address. =)
well, perhaps i will still update this blog whenever i feel like doing so, but it wont be that often anymore.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
不一样了
是的，我变了，
一切都变得不一样了。
我不懂这样的改变是好还是坏，
既然以前的我让那么多人受不了，
也许改变一下对自己，对大家都好吧。
我知道你们希望我能有所成长，
虽然我不知道这样的改变是否让你们满意，
他们说，伤过了，痛过了，就会慢慢地长大。
但是，别忘了，每个人面对痛的反应都不一样。
哈哈。
但至少，现在的我，
更加懂得珍惜。
那些真心对我好的人，我会加倍地对他们好。
尤其是那些对我不离不弃的人，真的很感激！
现在的我，学会了，更加爱自己了。
就算被全世界遗弃了又怎样？
就是因为没有人爱，所以才要更加地爱自己啊。（不然就亏大了，哈哈！）
然后，把爱分给很爱我的家人，还有懂得珍惜我的朋友。
何必为了不在乎你的人而伤心难过？
倒不如把爱和开心带给你身边的人，珍惜每一秒和他们在一起的快乐时光，那不是更加有意义吗？
最近，迷上了xia xue 的blog。
很欣赏她的直爽，还有看她如何面对批评。
得到了很大的启发。
同一件事同一个人，有人会喜欢，当然就有人会讨厌。
没有一个人是可以让全世界都喜欢你的。
重要的，是学会尊重。
我们可以有不一样的想法，不一样的立场，
这不代表一定其中有一方是错的。
看开了，不会勉强你们接受我，
只不过，我也有权利保留属于我的回忆，
不勉强你们接受我并不代表我已经放弃我们之间的友谊，
到现在我还相信着，朋友是作一辈子的，
不可能说断就断，即使你们不把我当朋友也无所谓，
至少在我心里，还是有你们的影子，有我们一起的回忆。
还是会忍不住想关心，想知道你们的近况，
但是又不知道该不该打扰。。。
ops。我离题了。
说到面对批评，以前的我是会找个角落躲起来，静静地看着血慢慢地流着，等到它已经不再流了，默默地疗伤。
后来发现，这个方法实在是太委屈太愚蠢了。
不出声，别人就当作是你不在乎了。却没想到是你拼命地压抑和忍耐。
某人说得对，默默承受已经落伍了，不被接受了，
现在说的是，坦荡荡敢爱敢恨敢讲的时代。
只要对得起自己，不做伤天害理的事情，
又何必去理会哪些人喜欢你，哪些人讨厌你呢？
现在是大唱‘我就是这样’的时代！
做回最真实的自己，才是对的！
有人讨厌你，不赞同你，
才更加证明你是特别的，是与众不同的。
"Anything that you do that is out of the ordinary will get you haters.
Most of the time, exactly why they hate you is what makes you unique."
- Quoted from XiaXue
或许，你们是对的。
因为就是从这些伤痛里，我更加了解自己了。
原来，我并不是自己所以为的那么没性格，没想法的。
我也更加清楚自己不要的是什么了。
我知道自己常常在blog得罪人了，
但是这里是我唯一可以抒发自己想法的地方，
在这里我是主人，我只想有个地方可以不必压抑自己而已。
不然我真的很怕会有精神病。
愿意继续和我分享彼此生活与想法的，谢谢你。
看我的blog不顺眼的，呵呵，feel free to leave~
一切都变得不一样了。
我不懂这样的改变是好还是坏，
既然以前的我让那么多人受不了，
也许改变一下对自己，对大家都好吧。
我知道你们希望我能有所成长，
虽然我不知道这样的改变是否让你们满意，
他们说，伤过了，痛过了，就会慢慢地长大。
但是，别忘了，每个人面对痛的反应都不一样。
哈哈。
但至少，现在的我，
更加懂得珍惜。
那些真心对我好的人，我会加倍地对他们好。
尤其是那些对我不离不弃的人，真的很感激！
现在的我，学会了，更加爱自己了。
就算被全世界遗弃了又怎样？
就是因为没有人爱，所以才要更加地爱自己啊。（不然就亏大了，哈哈！）
然后，把爱分给很爱我的家人，还有懂得珍惜我的朋友。
何必为了不在乎你的人而伤心难过？
倒不如把爱和开心带给你身边的人，珍惜每一秒和他们在一起的快乐时光，那不是更加有意义吗？
最近，迷上了xia xue 的blog。
很欣赏她的直爽，还有看她如何面对批评。
得到了很大的启发。
同一件事同一个人，有人会喜欢，当然就有人会讨厌。
没有一个人是可以让全世界都喜欢你的。
重要的，是学会尊重。
我们可以有不一样的想法，不一样的立场，
这不代表一定其中有一方是错的。
看开了，不会勉强你们接受我，
只不过，我也有权利保留属于我的回忆，
不勉强你们接受我并不代表我已经放弃我们之间的友谊，
到现在我还相信着，朋友是作一辈子的，
不可能说断就断，即使你们不把我当朋友也无所谓，
至少在我心里，还是有你们的影子，有我们一起的回忆。
还是会忍不住想关心，想知道你们的近况，
但是又不知道该不该打扰。。。
ops。我离题了。
说到面对批评，以前的我是会找个角落躲起来，静静地看着血慢慢地流着，等到它已经不再流了，默默地疗伤。
后来发现，这个方法实在是太委屈太愚蠢了。
不出声，别人就当作是你不在乎了。却没想到是你拼命地压抑和忍耐。
某人说得对，默默承受已经落伍了，不被接受了，
现在说的是，坦荡荡敢爱敢恨敢讲的时代。
只要对得起自己，不做伤天害理的事情，
又何必去理会哪些人喜欢你，哪些人讨厌你呢？
现在是大唱‘我就是这样’的时代！
做回最真实的自己，才是对的！
有人讨厌你，不赞同你，
才更加证明你是特别的，是与众不同的。
"Anything that you do that is out of the ordinary will get you haters.
Most of the time, exactly why they hate you is what makes you unique."
- Quoted from XiaXue
或许，你们是对的。
因为就是从这些伤痛里，我更加了解自己了。
原来，我并不是自己所以为的那么没性格，没想法的。
我也更加清楚自己不要的是什么了。
我知道自己常常在blog得罪人了，
但是这里是我唯一可以抒发自己想法的地方，
在这里我是主人，我只想有个地方可以不必压抑自己而已。
不然我真的很怕会有精神病。
愿意继续和我分享彼此生活与想法的，谢谢你。
看我的blog不顺眼的，呵呵，feel free to leave~
Monday, September 2, 2013
My 1st Banoffee
在London的时候, 有一天我们去亲戚家吃饭聚餐。
没想到他们竟然准备了full course meal，从appetizer（salad，pie）到maincourse （烤羊）再到甜品（banoffee），第一次吃banoffee，真的很好吃！
回到来，整天在家无所事事，所以mao mao突然心血来潮，提议自己做banoffee。然后就在网上找到了recipe照着做。
它很特别，因为不需要oven的，只需要放进冰箱冷冻。可是也没有想象中容易，因为里面有几层的料，要一步一步准备，底层弄好了要放进冰箱等到它冷到凝固，才做第二层，再冷固，才做第三层，再冷固。最后还要放chocolate topping，结果花了大半天才做成。。。
做了三碗，自己家人吃了一碗，送了一碗给邻居，还有一碗，其实我是有心要留给那个曾经对我来说是很重要的那个人。虽然是自己第一次做甜品，味道还算不错，但就是太甜了。lesson learnt：千万不要相信recipe，糖粉绝对要减！ 可能因为外国人很喜欢吃甜的，难怪他们大部分都obese。
因为是自己第一次尝试做的，很历史性的，虽然是太甜了，算是失败品，但还是想让她（那个曾经是我有什么都想第一个告诉她跟她分享的，那个人）试试。 所以才鼓起勇气找她出来喝茶。虽然她来不到，但是这次是这大半年来她第一次reply我。也算是有开心到。
既然给不到最想给的那个人，家人又不喜欢太甜，又怕肥，就想随便找个人帮我解决掉这一碗东西。不然就要丢掉，太可惜了。。。
打了三次lulujie都没有接电话，michelle又在kl，想来想去还真的找不到人帮我。。。
最后才想到一个住最靠近我家的人，贪方便的下场就是没想到竟然还被shoot了一顿。
或许是自己表达能力有问题，因为不想人家想太多又误会，所以才开玩笑地说，假装很serious地拜托他帮我一个忙，我是真的在开玩笑，是因为我这个火星人的笑话没有人听的懂吗？还是因为我忘了放笑脸？
结果又被他老实不客气的臭骂了一顿！ $%@$#&*%@*!^#*&^#)*@^$@$!(@*#&!@)*&#!!!
我长这么大从来没有被人家这样讲过！还没有搞清楚就乱骂人！ 你真的以为我脸皮会厚到那个程度吗？
呵呵。。。真是可笑。。。
忽然才发现，原来他真的连一点最基本的风度也没有，原来之前是我把他想象得太好，是幻觉还是错觉啊？
当时真的被气到很火滚。。。
一口气吞不下，很想跟他讲清楚，因为我最最最讨厌被冤枉！但是我知道解释一大堆也没用，他最厉害就是回你一句：如果你不在意的话根本不需要解释。当场可以气死人。
当你无端端被骂，本意其实不坏，却被误会臭骂，看你还可以那么潇洒吗？
算了。那口气被我硬生生吞下去，不解释就不解释。
幸好到最后都找到好心人收留我的banoffee。真的感动到~~~
不然都最后可能真的要丢掉。。。
谢谢你，Sabrina。^^
既然给不到最想给的那个人，家人又不喜欢太甜，又怕肥，就想随便找个人帮我解决掉这一碗东西。不然就要丢掉，太可惜了。。。
打了三次lulujie都没有接电话，michelle又在kl，想来想去还真的找不到人帮我。。。
最后才想到一个住最靠近我家的人，贪方便的下场就是没想到竟然还被shoot了一顿。
或许是自己表达能力有问题，因为不想人家想太多又误会，所以才开玩笑地说，假装很serious地拜托他帮我一个忙，我是真的在开玩笑，是因为我这个火星人的笑话没有人听的懂吗？还是因为我忘了放笑脸？
结果又被他老实不客气的臭骂了一顿！ $%@$#&*%@*!^#*&^#)*@^$@$!(@*#&!@)*&#!!!
我长这么大从来没有被人家这样讲过！还没有搞清楚就乱骂人！ 你真的以为我脸皮会厚到那个程度吗？
呵呵。。。真是可笑。。。
忽然才发现，原来他真的连一点最基本的风度也没有，原来之前是我把他想象得太好，是幻觉还是错觉啊？
当时真的被气到很火滚。。。
一口气吞不下，很想跟他讲清楚，因为我最最最讨厌被冤枉！但是我知道解释一大堆也没用，他最厉害就是回你一句：如果你不在意的话根本不需要解释。当场可以气死人。
当你无端端被骂，本意其实不坏，却被误会臭骂，看你还可以那么潇洒吗？
算了。那口气被我硬生生吞下去，不解释就不解释。
幸好到最后都找到好心人收留我的banoffee。真的感动到~~~
不然都最后可能真的要丢掉。。。
谢谢你，Sabrina。^^
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Looking back, and moving forward
hello bloggie! so long didnt update blog.
actually i am afraid to open it, because it is filled with my precious memories, good and bad.
looking back at the good times that we have had together is a cruelty, because it hurts so much to think that we might not have the chance to go bk again. those are really beautiful memories that really means alot to me.
and looking back at the emo posts just reminds me and brings back all the emo feelings.
despite this, sometimes i still do curi-curi look back.(and then emo...stupid me)
no matter how hurtful it was, they are still my memories. memories means everything for a cancer. they are part of me. 'regrets and mistakes, they are memories made~'
i do believe that, it is ur past that makes u who u are today.
yes, i have changed. but i wouldnt say i have grow up. because there is still a lot for me to learn.
so many things happened.
was really busy preparing for my finals and at the same time enjoy every minute of being a student. everyone knew that study life is always better than working life.
i still remember that during orientation when i was still in 1st year, our senior told us, 'study hard and play hard!'. and yes, this is the advice i would give to any juniors too! haha!
i really couldnt believe that i made it. now i am graduated from a 5-year course named Bachelor of Dental Surgery. who would have thought a noobie like me could make it this far? i have always admire our seniors, looking at them graduating makes me wonder, they are so geng, can i really do this too? and now, ta-da!!! i am really happy and proud of it! =D
of course, i would not have come this far without the help and support of some very important person!
my family and friends who have always supported me, a big thank you to all of u! <3
actually i was really depressed during that exam period, but there was one person who never give up on me, even when i have already giving up. she is the one who gave me support, motivation, and do all she can to help me to get through all that. she created a 'heaven' for me when i was feeling like in 'hell'. she invited me to the most lovely room with all her collections of textbooks.
THE BEST PART of having an exam is, having someone to always be there for u, to work hard and fight together! stress together, panic together, eat together, release stress and laugh together. creating memories together.
seriously, without her, i wouldnt have managed to pull myself together when i was falling apart. i am not an organized person. i do not study according to any plan, usually i jz follow my mood, if i feel like reading this subject and this chapter, i ll just read it. there was no plan at all. but this girl, she is the one who plans everything and allocate a time period for each subject. i was really lucky to know her and followed her plan. haha! at least we didnt feel so lost. because, the scope was really too wide, or i should say, there is no boundary or scope, we just need to know EVERYTHING because ANYTHING can come out for exam. 大海捞针！(and the stupid bleaching came out again!!! which i totally didnt read at all. arghhh! >.<)
anyway, glad that we all passed. the whole batch 4 graduated as ONE (our wish written on Kong Ming Deng for all these years has came true).
5 years of studies, lectures, lab sessions, and clinics (and the most stressful clinic quotas)
pass 14 examinations and 23 subjects.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
and so, that's it about my study life.
now i am in another phase of life, which is called the 'Pig phase'.
now my life is all about eat and sleep and tv. aimless and pointless, yes i know. but this is the only time in life that i can do anything i like, no stress, no commitments, no work. just lazying around. sometimes i even lazy to go out of the house.
woo hoo~! i am enjoying it! eventhough sometimes it is quite boring too. but who cares?
i bet when i started working, i cant have this kind of lifestyle anymore.
so now must fully appreciate and enjoy this piggy life! hahaha!
oh ya. another thing. i hv always dreamed to go to europe and uk! and my dream did came true!
i am truly blessed, i know. =)
perhaps i should post about it another time? haha.
p/s: keep thinking whether i should open another blog, since i am in another different phase of life, and i feel like starting everything new. i want to start everything new and fresh. and truly be myself. and not being bounded by my past. maybe i will...one day...(if i am not lazy la) hahahaha! ^^
actually i am afraid to open it, because it is filled with my precious memories, good and bad.
looking back at the good times that we have had together is a cruelty, because it hurts so much to think that we might not have the chance to go bk again. those are really beautiful memories that really means alot to me.
and looking back at the emo posts just reminds me and brings back all the emo feelings.
despite this, sometimes i still do curi-curi look back.(and then emo...stupid me)
no matter how hurtful it was, they are still my memories. memories means everything for a cancer. they are part of me. 'regrets and mistakes, they are memories made~'
i do believe that, it is ur past that makes u who u are today.
yes, i have changed. but i wouldnt say i have grow up. because there is still a lot for me to learn.
so many things happened.
was really busy preparing for my finals and at the same time enjoy every minute of being a student. everyone knew that study life is always better than working life.
i still remember that during orientation when i was still in 1st year, our senior told us, 'study hard and play hard!'. and yes, this is the advice i would give to any juniors too! haha!
i really couldnt believe that i made it. now i am graduated from a 5-year course named Bachelor of Dental Surgery. who would have thought a noobie like me could make it this far? i have always admire our seniors, looking at them graduating makes me wonder, they are so geng, can i really do this too? and now, ta-da!!! i am really happy and proud of it! =D
of course, i would not have come this far without the help and support of some very important person!
my family and friends who have always supported me, a big thank you to all of u! <3
actually i was really depressed during that exam period, but there was one person who never give up on me, even when i have already giving up. she is the one who gave me support, motivation, and do all she can to help me to get through all that. she created a 'heaven' for me when i was feeling like in 'hell'. she invited me to the most lovely room with all her collections of textbooks.
THE BEST PART of having an exam is, having someone to always be there for u, to work hard and fight together! stress together, panic together, eat together, release stress and laugh together. creating memories together.
seriously, without her, i wouldnt have managed to pull myself together when i was falling apart. i am not an organized person. i do not study according to any plan, usually i jz follow my mood, if i feel like reading this subject and this chapter, i ll just read it. there was no plan at all. but this girl, she is the one who plans everything and allocate a time period for each subject. i was really lucky to know her and followed her plan. haha! at least we didnt feel so lost. because, the scope was really too wide, or i should say, there is no boundary or scope, we just need to know EVERYTHING because ANYTHING can come out for exam. 大海捞针！(and the stupid bleaching came out again!!! which i totally didnt read at all. arghhh! >.<)
anyway, glad that we all passed. the whole batch 4 graduated as ONE (our wish written on Kong Ming Deng for all these years has came true).
5 years of studies, lectures, lab sessions, and clinics (and the most stressful clinic quotas)
pass 14 examinations and 23 subjects.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
and so, that's it about my study life.
now i am in another phase of life, which is called the 'Pig phase'.
now my life is all about eat and sleep and tv. aimless and pointless, yes i know. but this is the only time in life that i can do anything i like, no stress, no commitments, no work. just lazying around. sometimes i even lazy to go out of the house.
woo hoo~! i am enjoying it! eventhough sometimes it is quite boring too. but who cares?
i bet when i started working, i cant have this kind of lifestyle anymore.
so now must fully appreciate and enjoy this piggy life! hahaha!
oh ya. another thing. i hv always dreamed to go to europe and uk! and my dream did came true!
i am truly blessed, i know. =)
perhaps i should post about it another time? haha.
p/s: keep thinking whether i should open another blog, since i am in another different phase of life, and i feel like starting everything new. i want to start everything new and fresh. and truly be myself. and not being bounded by my past. maybe i will...one day...(if i am not lazy la) hahahaha! ^^
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