Looking back, and moving forward

hello bloggie! so long didnt update blog.
actually i am afraid to open it, because it is filled with my precious memories, good and bad.
looking back at the good times that we have had together is a cruelty, because it hurts so much to think that we might not have the chance to go bk again. those are really beautiful memories that really means alot to me.
and looking back at the emo posts just reminds me and brings back all the emo feelings.
despite this, sometimes i still do curi-curi look back.(and then emo...stupid me)
no matter how hurtful it was, they are still my memories. memories means everything for a cancer. they are part of me. 'regrets and mistakes, they are memories made~'
i do believe that, it is ur past that makes u who u are today.
yes, i have changed. but i wouldnt say i have grow up. because there is still a lot for me to learn.

so many things happened.
was really busy preparing for my finals and at the same time enjoy every minute of being a student. everyone knew that study life is always better than working life.
i still remember that during orientation when i was still in 1st year, our senior told us, 'study hard and play hard!'. and yes, this is the advice i would give to any juniors too! haha!
i really couldnt believe that i made it. now i am graduated from a 5-year course named Bachelor of Dental Surgery. who would have thought a noobie like me could make it this far? i have always admire our seniors, looking at them graduating makes me wonder, they are so geng, can i really do this too? and now, ta-da!!! i am really happy and proud of it! =D

of course, i would not have come this far without the help and support of some very important person!
my family and friends who have always supported me, a big thank you to all of u! <3

actually i was really depressed during that exam period, but there was one person who never give up on me, even when i have already giving up. she is the one who gave me support, motivation, and do all she can to help me to get through all that. she created a 'heaven' for me when i was feeling like in 'hell'. she invited me to the most lovely room with all her collections of textbooks.
THE BEST PART of having an exam is, having someone to always be there for u, to work hard and fight together! stress together, panic together, eat together, release stress and laugh together. creating memories together.
seriously, without her, i wouldnt have managed to pull myself together when i was falling apart. i am not an organized person. i do not study according to any plan, usually i jz follow my mood, if i feel like reading this subject and this chapter, i ll just read it. there was no plan at all. but this girl, she is the one who plans everything and allocate a time period for each subject. i was really lucky to know her and followed her plan. haha! at least we didnt feel so lost. because, the scope was really too wide, or i should say, there is no boundary or scope, we just need to know EVERYTHING because ANYTHING can come out for exam. 大海捞针！(and the stupid bleaching came out again!!! which i totally didnt read at all. arghhh! >.<)

anyway, glad that we all passed. the whole batch 4 graduated as ONE (our wish written on Kong Ming Deng for all these years has came true).
5 years of studies, lectures, lab sessions, and clinics (and the most stressful clinic quotas)
pass 14 examinations and 23 subjects.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

and so, that's it about my study life.
now i am in another phase of life, which is called the 'Pig phase'.
now my life is all about eat and sleep and tv. aimless and pointless, yes i know. but this is the only time in life that i can do anything i like, no stress, no commitments, no work. just lazying around. sometimes i even lazy to go out of the house.
woo hoo~! i am enjoying it! eventhough sometimes it is quite boring too. but who cares?
i bet when i started working, i cant have this kind of lifestyle anymore.
so now must fully appreciate and enjoy this piggy life! hahaha!

oh ya. another thing. i hv always dreamed to go to europe and uk! and my dream did came true!
i am truly blessed, i know. =)
perhaps i should post about it another time? haha.

p/s: keep thinking whether i should open another blog, since i am in another different phase of life, and i feel like starting everything new. i want to start everything new and fresh. and truly be myself. and not being bounded by my past. maybe i will...one day...(if i am not lazy la) hahahaha! ^^